Five Funturous (Fun and Adventurous) Days to Remember

5 days to remember is my story telling about my trip to the beautiful place called Karimun Jawa. It has the most beautiful underwater view I've ever seen so far.

My trip started on 27th April 2012 until 1 May 2012.

Lets start the 1st day story


April 27th 2012,

April 27th 2012 was the day I was gonna start my very first experience as a backpacker. Yippiwww.
At 6 in the morning, I already wore my backpack (actually is not my backpack bag, I borrowed it from my boyfriend :p) and carried a sling bag filled with a lot of snacks, as many people suggested me to carry a lot of snacks.
This trip did not begin in the morning, because I had to go to work first.

It is 3 pm already,
Together with my office mate, Rya, we were stopping the taxi to go to Lebak Bulus Bus Station. Ok, I know that it is supposed to be a backpacking travel time. We should use bus to go to Lebak Bulus Bus Station, but considering the fact that we were a beginner here so let start the backpaker thing later :D.

Around 4 pm, we already arrived at the Station. Condition at the station? Really uncomfortable and scary. As we started enter the station, the panic feeling came. So many mas2 came closer and asked about our destination, what bus we were gonna use. Maybe it was the same feeling felt by Yuni Shara when people asked about her breaking relationship with Rafi Ahmad. They were so annoying!!!

Successfully passed all the annoying Mas2, we entered the Bus station. It is quite a big station coz there are a lot of buses with many directions parking in there. Accompanied with a hot sun shine, we went to the place where Nusantara bus parked. Nusantara Buswas the bus we used to go to Kartini Harbour located in Jepara. Because I want to use a Bahari Boat which is available in Kartini Harbour, it is a new boat that based on its pomotion, it only takes 1 hour and 45 minutes to cross the sea to Karimun Jawa. In fact it took... , ok I'll tell you later. :d

There were 3 more of our friends that already waiting at the Lebak Bulus Bus station, Wina, Upi, and Abe. Yes, it is a story about five crazy people trying to have fun in Karimun Jawa.

While waiting the bus to depart, the five of us (actually it was the four of us, because Abe kept telling us about the advantages using Nusantara bus) did an observation about the best bus to go to Jepara.

Here are the conclusion:

If you wanna go to Karimun Jawa and wanna use a boat to cross the sea from Kartini Harbour, we suggest you to use these 3 buses, you should know upfront that it was a conclusion from 4 girls who never be a backpacker before the date of 27th April 2012. Hence, let me apologize first if we chose the bus based on silly reasons. :D

#1 Bejeu Bus,

Yes, the bus name is Bejeu which I dont know what the meaning of that bus. The thing that I know that this bus provides a wifi connection in it. Can you imagine that for 12 hours trip you can do browsing, tweeting so many things, updating foursquare, or even streaming youtube? Ok, I guess it sounds that I am a person who really cant life without internet. In fact, I am not really that kind of person. I hope so. :D. Besides the wi fi connection provided by this bus, there is also a coffee table and two flat tvs in it.

From that picture you can clearly see the wi-fi symbol right? :D

#2 H. Hariyanto,

Yes, once again I confirm you that the name of the bus is, H. Hariyanto. At the first time I heard this bus name, I also doubted it. I also made a silly imagination, if my friend asked about the bus I used to go to Jepara, H. Hariyanto was not a cool name to be said. Then, my dear friend if there are some words said that Don't Judge a Book by Its Cover. At that day, I wanna say to you that Don't Judge A Bus by It's Name. I know that Shakespeare was right when he said What is in The Name. I should've heard him. ;p
H. Hariyanto is a black bus with cool and tough design. If it were a horse, it'll look like a black horse. It is a dashing bus. Too bad that I forgot to take a picture of this bus. Sorry.

#3 Nusantara,
Compared with the name of those previous buses, Nusantara is the name of a perfect bus. It is a blue bus, it has one flat tv. It provides a blanket in each seat. It was the bus we use to go to Jepara and it had a nice driver who was willingly stopping the bus at Kartini Harbour instead of at Jepara Bus Station.


Let me tell you the funny thing about using Night Bus. A night bus usually has two drivers in it. Since it is a long road to drive, so it is supposed to have an alternate driver. These two drivers must have a same professional skill. Why I use the word professional? Coz I think it is the best word to describe a driver driving a big bus as if he drives a mini cooper.

Based on my experience, they never had any doubt to pass all the vehicles in front of him.They did not care if it was a truck carrying a dangerous gas or it was a big truck carrying six expensives cars.They had a spirit of winner in their mind, to the the first bus on the road might be their vision. :D

Using the night bus, really train my heart to keep beating no matter what my eyes see. The thing I never forget was the fact that each time I tried to enter the dream area in my sleeping, that was the time the driver suddenly stepped the brake coz he almost hit a truck in front of him. Oh Baby, it is not scary at all. Because the scariest part was this thing happened so many times until we arrived at Jepara. Can you imagine what kind of feeling we have? Undescribable! And this was just a beginning of our funterous trip.

Long Time No See, Dear You

Heyho, My dear Blog.

Sudah lama sekali sejak terkahir aku menggabungkan kata-kata menjadi kalimat lalu menjadi paragraf dan menjadi satu bacaan di dalam blog ini. Bahkan tadi sempat bingung buat mulai mengarang di blog ini, bingung mencet tombol yang mana yaaaa.

It's been a while since my last writing.

Dulu, aku suka sekali menulis. Dulu, setiap ada kata yang terbesit di pikiran langsung buru-buru buka blog buat nulis. Walau cuma satu atau dua kalimat jadinya, tetep aja di post, di publish. Dulu, aku juga seorang manusia yang berbeda dengan sekarang. (ya iyalah yaa)

Pernah ga sih kita berpikir, kalau seiring berjalannya waktu manusia pasti berubah. Maksudnya ga secara 180 derajat berubah (bisa aja sih inim untuk kasus tertentu terjadi di beberapa orang), tapi ya pasti Perubahan itu ga bisa dielakkan lagi. Kalo kata kerennya sih ya, Change is Inevitable. :p

Waktu yang tanpa kita sadari diam-diam menggiring kita ke sosok yang baru.

Dulu, kamu yang ga bisa bangun kalo ga di atas jam 9 pagi, sekarang semenjak dapet kerjaan jadi selalu bangun lebih dulu dibandingkan alarm yang kamu pasang waktunya di malam sebelumnya.
Memang sih ini hanya perubahan kecil, tapi bukankah sesuatu yang besar itu dimulai dari yang kecil.

Waktu juga yang membuat perubahan kecil itu menjadi besar, misalnya dulu kamu punya teman yang sama sekali ga suka sama yang namanya cabe. Lalu, selang lima tahun berganti kamu ketemu dia lagi di warung bakso (tulisan ini emang dibuat malam2 sih, jadi tiba2 kepikiran bakso aja *elus2 perut :p) dan tiba2 aja dia menambahkan 5 sendok sambel ke dalam mangkoknya.

Yakin deh, pasti kamu langsung pengen komen: "Kok tumben sekarang lu suka cabe? Sejak kapan?"

Kenapa sih harus ada kata2 "kok" di kalimat kamu? Kenapa kamu terlihat shock dan ga terima gitu? Sampai harus menabahkan kata "kok". Seperti yang sudah dibahas sebelumnya, perubahan ya tak terelakkan dan bisa terjadi sama siapa aja.

Kita, sebagai manusia dan pelaku yang sering berubah ini, ya harus bisa menerima itu dong. Untuk setiap orang yang berubah, tandanya dia bersosialisasi lhoo. Dia menyesuaikan diri dengan lingkungan barunya dan mengadaptasi hal2 yang menjadi dasar perubahan yang terjadi. Ga usah mencela ataupun ga terima ya kalo teman kamu itu berubah.

Kalau dipikir-pikir, kenapa juga ya bahas tentang perubahan di blog ini. Ya jawabannya kenapa ngga. :p
Aku cuma mau ngingetin ke diri sendiri kok, kalo perubahan itu amat sangat wajar terjadi.

Change is inevitable. Change may happen to anyone anywhere.

For the one who has changed, I'll try to understand the new you. As your friend, I promise to not ever citisizing your changing, coz I know that you are trying to be the part of society.

Good Night, Good People.

Bukan Penumpang Biasa

Supir angkutan umum itu jg manusia. Sebagai penikmat angkutan umum, saya sering menemukan kejadian2 yg menurut saya menarik.
Pernah waktu itu naik metromini 75, supirnya masih muda dan berpakaian rapi dan berparas manis (bukan ini bukan
Cerita saya kesengsem si supir muda) dengan kenek yg seumuran jg. Selayaknya supir 75 dr Pasar Minggu ya dia menempuh jalur menuju ke Blok M
Namun, di perempatan jalan dekat sebuah gang berdiri 2 org wanita. 1 gadis muda dan ibunya yang duduk di deket supir. Awalnya saya pikir dia penumpang biasa.
Ternyata bukan penumpang biasa, gadis itu adalah pacar si supir muda. Niatnya mereka mau pacaran. Dan si ibu td ya memang ibu si gadis muda,
Tp tujuan si ibu ini bkn untuk ngawasin anaknya pacara ternyata. Si ibu mau ke Blok M, mau ngelabrak Mpo Lela yg mulutnya
Lemes bgt! (Begitu menurut cerita si Ibu). Ok, kita kembali ke bagian pacaran kedua org muda ini. Jd yg mereka namakan pacaran adalah
Nemenin sang supir sampe batas jatah nyetirnya abis hari itu. Ditemani kripik singkong pedas,
Mereka bercerita dan tertawa2 sepanjang jalan.
Lain metromini, lain lg angkot 04. Di angkot ini saya duduk di muka di samping pak supir.
Waktu naik jg sudah ada ibu2 yg duduk di situ. Sekali lg saya pikir ibu itu penumpang
Biasa. Ternyata dia pacar sekali lagi saya tekankan pacar bukan istri tp pacar
Si bapak supir yg umurnya sekitar 40 an. Kalo yg di metromini ditemani snack keripik singkong,
Di angkot ini sang ibu bawa gorengan. Mereka ngobrol, ketawa2, bahkan pak supir
Kadang suka nari2 aneh kl ada pengamen yg tiba2 ngamen d angkot. Dan mulailah si ibu
Ketawa2 kesenengan dan kegelian liat tingkah si bapak.
Yg bagi saya, sama sekali ga lucu. Bukan ini bukan krn iri, tp ya memang ga lucu. Beberapa meter sebelum tempat
Peralihan supir si Ibu turun, sebelum turun dia bilang 'Besok jemput agak pagian dr biasanya aja ya' What? Jd
Kejadian nemenin pak supir nyetir smbil makan gorengan ini udh kaya aktivitas sehari2 si ibu sama si bapak?

Ok, hal sebenernya yg pengen saya katakan dr cerita ini adalah benar kalo kedua wanita di atas punya
Rasa mengasihi yg tulus. Mereka ga butuh tiket nonton film terbaru, atau tempat makan di Mall ternama,
Atau konser band ternama untuk menghabiskan waktu dgn org yg mereka sayangi.

Dr sini kita belajar kl sesuatu bisa jd menyenangkan berdasarkan bagaimana kita mengesetnya jd menyenangkan.

If world does not smile at you, then give the world your best smile telling your Happy.

uniquely in diversity

Beberapa hari yang lalu saya dikejutkan dengan beberapa
Pengakuan dari beberapa teman saya tentang mereka
Yang punya pasangan berbeda keyakinan. Namun, setelah saya
Tilik lagi, kenapa saya harus kaget. Kenapa saya harus
Bereaksi terkejut. Lumrah kalau ada 1 wanita mencintai 1 laki2
. Kenapa saya harus kaget. Atas apapun latar belakang yg mereka
Miliki, saya berpikir saya tidak mempunyai hak untuk mengomentarinya
Setiap orang punya hak untuk menentukan arah hatinya. Kita
Yang hanya orang luar, yg bertindak luar biasa sok taunya
Dengan berkata 'gw tau lu sayang bgt sama dia, tapi' siapa
Kita sebenarnya, bisa berkata seolah2 bisa merasakan perasaan orang
Lain hanya karena pernah merasakan hal yg nyaris sama, tapi
Tak serupa. Hanya karena kita pernah mencintai sebelumnya, kita jadi
Bisa berkata dengan sok taunya kalo kita juga tau perasaan teman kita.
Tidaklah kalian pernah mendengar kata2, bahwa tidak ada d dunia ini
Hal yg persis sama. Perasaan bukanlah sebuah hal yg bisa
Diukur dengan melihat rata2 dari semua kasus yg sejenis. Kamu salah
Sayang, setiap orang menciptakan pola baru pada perasaannya untuk
Setiap hubungan yg mereka miliki. Jd, siapa sebenarnya kita,org luar,
Yg bersikap seolah tahu segalanya untuk menghentikan hubungan yg
Sebenarnya kita tdk tahu persis rasanya. Teman, untuk keputusan
Apapun yg kamu ambil, untuk dgn siapa kamu membagi hatimu,
Aku hanya akan menyiapkan seluruh waktuku untuk mendengar ceritamu,
Aku tdk akan memaksamu untuk melakukan apapun. Atas keputusan apapun
Yg kamu ambil, aku yakin kamu org yg plng bertanggung jawab akan hal itu,
Allah menciptakanmu dengan sempurna, kamu punya hati dan pikiran
Untuk menentukan arah hidupmu. Atas keputusan apa yg km ambil,
Aku yakin itu buah dari pemikiran yg berasal dr otak yg telah dianugrahkan
Oleh الله untuk mu. Aku hanya temanmu yg akan setia mendengarkan, cz who am I to judge?

will I be someone?

Ok, let's start it with a warning that for the next sentences that u will read
above are goingh to contain something unimportant and some regrets.
Realizing what I have achieve today, I should be grateful to الله

However, this pride seems nothing compared with my friend's achievementm

Why we have to envy someone who seems greater than us?

Why don't just thankful to الله for what we achieve today?

Ok, I guess it is a little bit unfair to use the pronoun we,
Coz in this case it is me who does not appreciate my life.

Why shoul I have to envy my friend?

Dear little Jeni, don't u realize that الله is the only one knowing
What's best for u.

Why don't u just be thankful to الله instead of continuosly asking الله
With the why why why question.

Ya الله , please forgive my rude insensitive manner.
For what u have planned to me, I sincerely say thank you cz u're the one who
Knows what best 4 me.

Synchronizing my heart

I'm so disappointed with my heart, after a long struggling months to ensure this heart that he is not destied to be mine, and after this mind fully agreed with that condition.

Now, I've just found the fact that this heart still cannot agree with the condition. it's still hurt. slightly but deep hurt.

I do know that he is not my Mr. Right

I do know that we are not meant to be together

I do Thank to God to not make him as my soulmate

but why this hurt still feel the hurt????

sebeeeellll

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actually i don't know what to write in this blog, but i want to write something today so I force myself to open this site and murmuring in this beloved blog, hehehehhe

Hmmmmm,
Ok I think I already know what to write in this blog.
On last friday, my colleague asked me aboot my status, she wanted to confirm that I'm really a single person.
I answered her question "Like I said before mba, for me to find a cute clothe is easier than to find a cute man"

My colleagues : "Regarding to your age, it's not the time to find a cute man, screw all the cute or fascinating man, You are going to welcome your new age, 23"

I answered her saying with a silence,

Pfffuuuuiiiihhhh, Should I be so worried? Which one I should pray first? a great career or a great man?...

I'm going to be a 23rd lady next month and I'm still trying to find what I really want to be in this life, am I left behind my friend?

The Big Blue Taxi

hehehhehe,
malam jumat kemarin aku bertemu dengan seorang yang ntah kenapa menurut ku punya sesuatu yang membuat aku terkesan. Seorag bapak supir taxi yang berwara biru dan berlambang burung itu bernama pak saprudin.

Beda dengan beberapa supir taxi yang sebelumnya aku naikin,ia langsung bercerita panjang lebar, tentang suka dukanya naik taxi. "Dulu saya supir truk, mba". "Jadir supir truk mah enak, ga keburu2 uang setoran kaya sekarang, sekarang mah kalo udah magrib setoran belum sampe 100 dah kelipungan." "Tapi ya mba, kalo pekerjaan itu jangan dipusingin, selama kita berusaha dan ikhlas, pasti rejekinya akan bertambah". "Kalo kerja itu ga boleh kesel2 mba." "Kita harus hobi sama kerjaan kita, kan kalo hobi itu ngelakuinnya aja dah seneng, ga dibayar aja dah senenga apalagi dibayar, pasti tambah seneng kan ya". "Saya mah berusaha aja, tapi juga haus ikhlas."

Pak Saprudin sepertinya orang yang dikirmkan oleh Allah untk menasihatiku, untuk menasihatiku agar mencintaik pekerjaan sekarang ini, lakukan sebaik mungkin, dan ikhlas. It's like God wanna advise me to Love my job, and every good thing will come to me."

Seorang supir taxi yang kerjaannya lebih banyak tekanan aja bisa ngomomg gitu, hebaaatttt.
Pak Saprudin yang cuma lulusan SD punya anak2 yang membanggakan, Ke-Dua anak2 nya bisa sekolah di UI dan ITS, belum lagi yang kecil juara 3 lomba web design se- Jawa Barat. Hebaaattt!!

Dalam cerita ini Allah juga mau bilang ke aku kalo semuanya akan mungkin selagi ada niat dan kerja keras.

Thx ya pak saprudin...

Ya Allah,I Know that you always have such a great mysterious way to show your existence.

Newbie's Attack

Regarding to my condition as a new comer in my new office, this blog is going to tell about mu experience as a new comer, hehehhe.

Started from last Friday, I officially got a job as an operations , a temporary staff actually.

it always hard to be a new comer. Mingle is the first thing you have to do. You have to give your best smile to every new person.

However, it all will not be a hard adaptation anymore if you have already got someone who is paying attention more to you.
this thing clearly happens to me, I have a colleague who is paying a little more attention to me. He always asks if I already eat my lunch or not.

I just feel that I'm not like a little alien in that office. Because, he notices that I exist in that office.
Ok my new colleague thx for you attention, I really really appreciate it...

all in all, my best suggestion if you are a new comer in a new environment, the first thing you have to do is find someone who is willing to pay a little more attention to you so that you will not feel like a little alien, hahahah. Silly suggestion!

Maka nikmat Tuhan kamu manakah yg kamu dustakan?

I have a friend. I envy her so much. She has everything I want. She has a good hobby, a great job, and a magnificent brain.

Are those clear enough why I envy her so much? hehehehhe

but then, I think that I'm not supposed to have this feeling. It means that I have not appreciated what God has decided to me before. Hey, jeniiiii you have been blessed for what you've got.
You did graduate at a great time, You have already got a job, and you do have a beautiful family who always support your decision. How wonderful is that?

Ya Allah, in this holy night allow me to say my apologize for being such an ungrateful person.
I know that you always give me the best.

Ya Allah, in this silent night allow me to say Thank you for every nice and wonderful thing you have given to my life.

"Which then of the bounties of your Lord will you deny?" (QS Ar.Rahman: 16)

You call me Jeni?!!

Jeni Maiza Winda is my beautiful name and people usually call me Jeni. All the member of my family call me "ade", they'll call me "Jen"i is just when they get angry with me.
More over, my college friends call me Jeje.
Actually, I don't really bother by the way people call my name, Jeni, Jeje, jenot, it's up to them.

But this afternoon, it became my full concern when He called me Jeni. It was not the name he used to call me. How could the word Jeni came from his mouth? Am I not his special anymore?
Does he want to be just an ordinary friend?

For God sake, Jeni... it's been almost two years. Of course, he has changed.

The way you call me Jeni means that you want to show me that "I'm not your special anymore" and "You are just my ordinary friend".

Ok! you can call me Jeni....

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Bitter Sweet Meeting...

Today I've just met the one I love most, the one I think that I will remake the relationship we've just broken up later..

Unfortunately, this meeting is not like the meeting I have predicted before. He said that he has just make up his relationship with his ex-girlfriend who is not me.
What on Earth that He think he is??
For God Sake, for the patient time I've just given to him in this previous months. Are those mean nothing him??

However, My feeling right now is different with the feeling I felt when we broke up. It hurts but it doesn't hurt so badly,, All I feel it's just a kind of relieved feeling.

What does this mean to me???

I still love him, I already put him away from my heart, or I just begin to love him??!

Suddenly disappear!!

Pagi di tanggal 29 Mei 2009 ini, tiba2 temen SMA ku yang sudah lumayan lama tak terdengar kabarnya menyapa di salah satu tempat layanan chatting palng begengsi, paaaaa cccc!!

"Jen, g lg pengen enyah dari Jakarta nih,enak ya lu ga di Jakarta" katanya,
waw!!! kenapa ya teanku ii? kok tiba2 nyapa n melontarkan pernyataaab seperti itu,

"Sok atuh main ke sini"

'Iya nih g pengen 'ilang'!"

Mmmhhhh, suddenly I realize that kind of emotion that I have experienced before...

Perasaan dimana,
Terkadang kita muak sama kegiatan kita sehari-hari yang monoton dan ituuuu-ituuuu aja, bangun tidur, mandi, ke kampus, belajar, pulang, sampe tidur lagi.
Monoton!!
Terkadang kita ingin pergi ke tempat lain dimana kita jadi orang 'asing', tempat yg belum pernah kita kunjungi sebelumnya, tempat dimana tak ada teman yg dikenal, tempat yg bisa dibilang sebuah tempat yang bebas untuk melakukan hal apa saja semau kitaa, bereksplorasi sesuka cara kita. karena dalam pikiran kita "Terserah dong, bodo amat ah!! Orang gada yg kenal ini". Karena kita lebih perduli pada pendapat orang2 terdekat kita dibandingkan mereka yg tahu nama kita pun tidak,

hhhh,,,
Suatu tempat dimana kita bisa melakukan hal yg belum pernah kita lakukan sebelumya,, suatu tempat yg juga menyadarkan kita kalau kita tak selamanya bisa sendiri,, suatu tempat dimana kita akhirnya sadar betapa berharganya kehidupan yg kita punya, sehingga saat kembali kita dapat menghargai kehidupan monoton itu.

It's true that I have such an 'ordinary' life. However, it is the life where my beloved fams n friends live in.

So grateful 4 this ordinary life, then

My Life is filled with "YOU"

Since I've been engaged with The Undergraduate Thesis, I almost loose my self identity and hygene. hahaha

This is my life recently,

1. Almost forget about smiling

Hhhh,,, semuanya jadi M.E.N.Y.E.B.A.L.K.A.N

2. Had a messy bed

Tempat tidur sekaligus tempat kertas, hehe



3. has been haunted by a book called "Games People Play"









Whuaaaa, buku ini lagiiii...... Takut!!







4. I'm used to spending my whole day in front of the desk instead of TV




Mmmm, pojok kamar "Kesayangan" ku! he







Hhhhh, What a Mesmerizing Life!! (^_*)

Go Messy Get Miss E! (Miss Elaborate)

hwaaa,
"Crack" is the first sound I heard when i woke up this morning, I've had my bed JEBOL!! hahaha
am I fatter? mmmmmmhhhh,,hehe

I've just arrived from my beloved holiday place, The Dream Land, hhaahaha
That vacation make me forget who I really am,
I forget that I am a college student who's working on my undergraduate thesis, whuaaaa!!!

Stress!!!

I'm nothing without YOU!!!!

Ada yang pernah mengatakan bahwa manusia itu makhluk yang hina, awalnya ga setuju dong sama pendapat ini, lha wong jelas2 manusia itu makhluk Tuhan yang paling tingi derajatnya diantara makhluk-makhluk ciptaan Tuhan yang lain. Masa nisa dikategorikan ke makhluk yang hina, kalo manusia itu hina apa kabar dengan makhluk2 yanga lainnya ya???
That was my first thought, today I've just realized that I was wrong.

Manusia itu emang benar2 hina, lebih tepatnya seorang manusia yang bernama Jeni Maiza Winda ini, hehe. tapi, ga bener juga sih langsung menyimpulkan bahwa semua manusia itu hina, ga adil buat mereka yang sudah berusa sebaik2nya buat menjadi sempurna di dunia ini.

Kenapa aku mengkategorikan sebagai seorang yg hina adalah berdasarkan apa yang telah aku alami selama ini. Aku terlalu menyepelekan kehadiran Tuhan, misalnya dengan terlalu merencanakan apa yang akan aku lakukan beberapa waktu mendatang,semua sudah terencana sebaik2nya, rasa yakin yang amt kuat akan keberhasilan rencana itu pun 110%, bahkan 'Gagal' pun mungkin enggan untuk mendekati. Itu yang aku pikirkan awalnya, sebuah pikiran sombong yang menyepelekan kebesaran Tuhan tanpa menyadari bahwa sebenarnya manusia hanya bisa merencanakan. Terbesit pun ngga buat minta bantuan agar dilancarkan, padahal semuanya ga akan berarti apa2 kalo gak ada persetujuan dariNya. Sampai suatu saat, semuanya terjadi jauh dari yang direncanakan, saat itu aku cuma bisa nangis kemudian sadar bahwa aku terlalu hina untuk bersujud kehadapanNya dan minta ampun buat kesombonganku juga kesalahanku karena telah salah memainkan peran di dunia ini, ternyata aku bukan Tuhan!!!

Kesadaran bahwa sudah berkali2 aku melakukan kesalahan dan berkali2 aku minta ampun dan berkali2 mengulang kesalahan tersebut, ga juga menutup kemungkinan buat aku buat bikin kesalahan lagi.. Tuh kan aku memang hina.

Pernah ga sih ngerasa ga dianggep sama seseorang n setelah orang itu butuh baru deh ke kita,"Damn!!! ngeselin banget sih tuh orang,kalo ada maunya aja baru ngubungin g? Kemana dia pas lagi seneng? Huh", kalimat ini nih yg pasti bakal keluar dari mulutku bila dihadapkan dengan orang seperti itu. Kira2 setelah banyak penyepelean yang aku lakukan dan tiba2 langsung bersujud menangis sekencang2nya meminta ampunannya, Allah bakal eneg kaya aku ke temen aku juga ga ya?? Pertanyaan ini yang pernah aku lontarkan ke temenku dan jawaaaabanny adalah (hehe), "Ya nggalah!! Allah kan bukan manusia seperti kita dia jauh lebih Bijaksana."

Kalo kaya gtu bakal banyak dong orang yang ngelakuin kesalahan trus minta maaf trus bikain lagi n trus minta maaf lagi . Tapi untuk berpikir bahwa Tuhan sama seperti kta itu juga salah besar!!

"Ya Allah sudah terlalu banyak kesalahan dan kekecewaan yang aku buat, bantu aku untuk memperbaikinya tanpa pernah mencoba untuk mengulanginya! Bantu aku untuk keluar dari predikat ini"

God, I do need your forgiveness!!

Finding My Old Friend

Hahahha, I've never thought that I finally write that sentence, "Finding My Old Friend". It's been a long long long searching, it took ten years to finally get her phone number. Thanks to Facebook for making my dream comes true.Hehehe,,,


Actually I have ever visited by the two words that almost made me become the guiltiest friend ever, the words consisting of 8 letters, G-I-V-I-N-G U-P,,, the words were continuously haunted me every single time, until one day when I wanted to declare their winning, a nice miracle came to my life. Yippie, I've finally found my old friend, Ninda, a friend who's firstly taught me about the incredible relation in friendship.

The days after my finest invention becomes the best days of my life. I have never thought that she is as excited as I am. hmmmm Ninda, can't hardly wait to see you in Bali.

One thing to notice is:
the time you think that you want to give up and get rid off all the hopes is the best time for God to realize your hope.

if God never allows his creature to get closer to surrender so then why He answers all prayers at the time when His creature wants to have a great relationship with surrender. Hmmm?!!

Above all, I certainly sure that God always has his own sophisticated way to answer all the prayers

Bingung

Bingung adalah suatu persaan yang sangat sering dimiliki oleh tiap diri manusia. Bingung membuat manusia menjadi berpikir. Misalnya, waktu kita kecil kita sering bingung atas apa yang sedang diperbincangkan oleh orang sekitar, karena kita bingung jadi kita bertanya lalu 1 pengetahuan baru bertambah ke otak kita.
Bingung itu biasanya terjadi karena kita dihadapkan oleh banyak pilihan. Namun,karena terlalu banyakpilihan ini,kita malah menganggap kalau kita bingung karea ga ada pilihan. Mmmm, bingung ih.
Bingung, juga bisa terjadi saat kita berhadapan dengan sesuatu yang jauh di luar perkiraan kita."Lho, kok jadi kaya gini c?" "Lho, kok dia gitu c?" dan banyak 'lho' 'lho' yang lain. Tapi,dari beberapa pernyataan tadi,kita jadi merasa tertantang untuk mengakhiri kebingungan kita dengan mencari tau jawabannya.

Hmm, kalau diperhatikan bingung itu banyak kegunaannya buat hidup kita. Jadi, beruntunglah bagi kalian yang senang bingung saat ini. Namun, jika kita dapat dikategorikan sebagai orang yang beruntung karena kita sedang bingung, kenapa banyakorang bingung yang mengeluh dan merasa tidak beruntung, ya?!

Hmmm,kenapa ya? Jadi, bingung!!

Tik.. Tik Bunyi Hujan,,

Yeeeeeeee, akhirnya mulai ngoceh di blog baru. Untuk pertama kalinya di tahun 2009 ini g ngerasain yang namaya tetes ajaib dari langit. Brrrrrrrrr... seger bgt, kaya semua beban yang ratusan kilo itu ngilang gitu aja. Aneh deh, prasaan yang tadinya njelimet langsung jadi sennnnneeeeeeeeeeeengngng banget.
Hujan, mang menyenangkan ya, apalagi baunya. Hmmmmmmmmmm wangi banget.